When will we quit this hell?
Tiger women write home
Two more letters found from the possession of two female Tiger women
in Wanni early this week amply prove that they had been forced to serve
the LTTE under trying circumstances and untold hardships. They also
speak of their pathetic mental agony, malice against the outfit,
desperation and also the fear of continuing abduction on their family
members. Translation of the letters and photocopies of the originals
below is an eye-opener to those who sympathise with the LTTE.
Loving Appa, Amma, Rajini, Dercy, Gamri, Kuyinsa, Tharakutti,
Thambakutti, I am all right, I pray god that you be blessed. Is Amma
well? There is a rumour here that something has happened at home. I am
shedding tears here. Our caretaker will send us home if there is a
problem at home. But nobody knows. I sent a letter to Amma.
They who took the letter promised to bring a reply from Amma.
But so far no results. I sent five letters home. Didn't you receive
them? I will send this letter in the hand of Suda teacher's Shanthi
(English teacher at Pudukudirippu). I am now at the rear ground of
Mullikulam in Mannar.
The area is always shelled. We run to bunkers for protection. When
will I be able to get out of this hell?
Amma, Appa, Rajini and all, I always remember you. Don't be in hunger
thinking of me. If Amma falls sick seriously, inform me. Then they will
show me her. Amma, don't worry about me.
I am all right. Can't help. This is the path that god has created for
me. I live with the hope that god some day or the other will unite us.
Appa I am saved here by the god that your worship. Amma, do they
still arrest the family members of deserters?
Now they abduct two if there are five in the family. Amma, please
dispatch Sarasila to Vavuniya. Otherwise, she will also be abducted. How
Is uncle writing to you? What is Thuvajara doing? How is Shashi Akka?
Getting my release from here is only a dream but you must not be moved
Let's wait and see whether they will let me go home. I am sorry that
my age is passing. What else shall I write? Dercy, Kawsita, be careful
don't be obstinate. Kara, Kutti, Thambi you also be careful. God bless
Amma, Appa, Thambi (Mother, father, younger brother) and all,
I sent a number of letters. Did you receive them? Why did not you
reply? Appa, have no fear to send me letters. I want to know how you are
getting on. Due to some merit of yours, I am happy. Appa, enjoy your
life. God will take care of everything. Appa, if you had known that I
would leave you like this, you could have killed me before I was born.
But nobody can go against the fate. Amma, what sin have I done? Why does
the god treat me like this. Appa, I am a sinner. Will I ever be
forgiven? Amma, those days you put a dot on my forehead and looked after
me but today nobody is there to do that. Those days I was worried over
the absence of Akka and Thangachchi (elder sister and younger sister) at
home. Now I have lost the company of Amma and Appa. I cannot bear this.
I live like an orphan here. Amma there is no one here to tell my
grievances. I don't know when happiness will come to me. Appa, get my
horoscope read to see how long will I suffer this. I will not live if
something happens to you. Amma, don't leave anything for me. Give
everything to Kamal. I can get anything if I come alive. Will you accept
me if I come to you? Amma, I want to die on your lap. I want to earn
money and look after you but I know none of those will happen. Amma,
give Thambi a good education. Sanker Anna (Elder brother), look after
Amma, Appa and Thambi. Help them. I am not destined to be with mother
but you can do it. Amma, take me to you at least for a short time.