Itipahan (Burly Lamp) Chapter - 33
By Sumithra RAHUBADDE
(Translated by Ranga Chandrarathne and
edited by Indeewara Thilakarathne)
"I am a lamp burning on both ends
Known well that I cannot pass the night
Yet
See my friends
Foes
How powerful light
Burnt
To dispel the darkness"
Soome who climbed up the flight of steps, stopped at the third floor.
Soome walked a little on the floor covered with a carpet, looked around.
She thought there was a mystic air in the environment. Soome saw
non-flowering plants in the pots put up at intervals. She thought that
the plants which would be thought to be cared well for by someone had
eaten up a lot of fertilizer. Her lips opened up at the thought of what
was the use of plants which bore no flowers. The rooms on either side of
the corridor were closed. She was sure that she had not gone astray. A
youngster in white was approaching.
"Whom are you searching for ", he sternly asked.
"Which is Mr. Sirinatha Amarawardene's room?" Soome asked the
youngster.
"At the far-end room!" said the youngster and he did not look back on
Soome again. But the youth who went up to the far-end room asked "Shall
I say who has come? ", looking at Soome.
"Tell Soome has come from the village", said she and paused near the
room. When summoned by Sirinatha, Soome entered the room. Sirinatha got
up on seeing Soome. Soome sat in front of Sirinatha surveying his
luxurious office. Sirinatha was amazed at how Soome had found out his
office. He saw the residual youthful pleasantness on her face albeit her
body was emaciated. Sirinatha thought that his wife would not wear the
garment that Soome clad, even at home. Her hair was dishevelled. Soome,
who wiped the drops of sweat on her face with a faded-colour
handkerchief, smiled with Sirinatha.
"You are lucky" Soome said and Sirinatha smiled.
"Sirinatha, now letters are over, don't search for money to give me
Rs. 30 or 40 to send me off. Sirinatha, I came here not to ask for
money. Sirinatha I want to talk with you. During the past couple of
days, I thought of not coming here. At last, I thought that I should
talk with you to console myself," said Soome, wiping her face and the
neck again with the handkerchief.
"Soome, are you hungry? Shall I order you a parcel of rice and
curry?" Sirinatha said as if he had not heard Soome.
"Sirinatha, I did not come here for meals because I am hungry. I will
not come for that. I came to talk with you", Soome said. At that moment,
Sirinatha understood that Soome did not mince her words now as she did
in the past. Sirinatha together with Soome sat on an easy and long
chair. She had come to relieve of issues from which she had been
suffering throughout the life before him and to take off that burden
from the mind. Therefore, Sirinatha thought that it was his duty to
listen to her.
"I am sad about Niyathapala's death. He was as strong as a stone.
What is to be done? Things happened as they had destined to be ",
Sirinatha said as Soome remained.
"Sirinatha, you would not say so if you had heard how Niyathapala
scolded me in raw filth. At that time, I thought of giving him a drop of
acid", Soome said. Sirinatha thought that Soome had come to relieve her
mind of long-drawn out troubles. He saw a faint glimpse of excitement
emerging from her face overcoming fatigue.
"Soome, don't tell these things to anybody else ", Sirinatha warned.
Soome glanced at Sirinatha and faintly smiled.
"I felt extremely lonely after his death. I considered him as the man
in the house although we fought bitterly. Sirinatha, but the sense of
relief that came to me when I heard that Niyathapala had died was more
than what I felt after releasing from the prison. I thought all the
hardship I endured was over", said Soome. "I want a little bit of
water," she said. On Sirinatha's order, in a few seconds a youth
appeared with a glass of water. Soome emptied it in one go.
"Then, Soome had never been in peace with Niyathapala? ", Sirinatha
asked. Soome thought Sirinatha was raising questions with the intention
of examining her life.
"Sirinatha, there was nothing wrong with Niyathapala. He was always
faithful to me. But I could not reconcile myself. Therefore, I always
compared Niyathapala with someone else. I knew that was an offence. But
I committed it knowing well that it was wrong to do so", said Soome
immediately and looked at Sirinatha who was looking down. Sirinatha did
not question her. Soome began to unfold the pages of a magazine on a
nearby stool with a sense of indifference. The youth put two cups of tea
and a plate of sweets.
"Eat", Sirinatha said pushing the plate of sweet towards Soome. Soome
took a piece of muscat.
"Sirinatha, Niyathapala had an amazing strength. This man spoke
before us as strong as a rock after swallowing acid. He walked half a
mile to the bus halt before going to the hospital. Even there he waited
a long time for the bus. He went to the hospital after a long time. We
could not find a taxi!" Soome sighed.
"He was a man of amazing strength", said Soome looking at Sirinatha
who was listening to her. Soome could not understand as to why he
remained silent. Was Sirinatha thinking that all this happened because
of him? Soome thought though she had tried to compare Niyathapala with
Sirinatha throughout her life, the two men were incomparable.
Thereafter, she thought that Sirinatha was more handsome than ever
before. He had the look of a contented and prosperous man. Sirinatha,
who chased after her in childhood and who she thought was in love with
her as a youth had now become a completely different person. The tie on
his neck had given him a proud look.
She noticed that he had combed his hair differently. His disposition
was also changed. At last she regretted that her subconscious compelled
her to talk to Sirinatha who had undergone such a change.
"Have you applied for Niyathapala's pension?" Sirinatha raised a
question.
"Comrades help to get it done. It is a little cumbersome as documents
are in disarray", Soome said. "How about you?" she asked Sirinatha.
"Not bad", Sirinatha said.
"Sirinatha, how could you get wrong? When married from a well-to-do
family, such people would be successful. ", said Soome, sipping the cup
of tea. Sirinatha felt that he developed an unbearable pang for Soome.
Sirinatha wanted to hug her. He thought of her beautiful face amidst all
the sufferings. Although she used rough words he liked to talk with her
for a long time. Sirinatha contemplated as to why Soome had visited him
after Niyathapala's death.
"Don't misunderstand me. Don't think that I came to you for something
foul. I wanted to tell this and to relieve my mind. Though I was happy
at Niyathapala's death, I am always reminded how this poor man helped me
when everyone left me", said Soome wiping a drop of tear. Sirinatha
thought if he had not strengthened the fence around his mind to release
the load of romantic memories about his beloved Soome, both of them
would fall into an abyss. He could only chase her away from his life
after thinking a lot about it. Even now he could not think whether he
had emerged victorious following that extremely difficult runaway in the
youth.
"I am going. Sirinatha, don't take them into your head. Now, forget
about it", said Soome and got up.
"Soome, you may be having financial difficulties? ", Sirinatha asked
as he got a clue to Soome's thinking with regard to his giving her money
at first.
"Sirinatha, I don't want your money though I have financial problems.
I did not come for money", said Soome. "I am going", said she. Sirinatha
followed her.
"Soome, tell me if you have any problem. I will try to help you. Try
to look after the two children well. There is nothing wrong in thinking
of marriage again as Soome, you are still young. ", Sirinatha murmured.
Soome sarcastically smiled.
"Sirinatha, why are you wearing spectacles? Don't you see well",
Soome said as if she had suddenly reminded of something.
"Weak eye sight", Sirinatha said removing the spectacles.
"Sirinatha, how could you have weak eye sight? Sirinatha, you can see
even in mind if not with eyes", said Soome, leaving Sirinatha again.
"Daisy work little more then, you will be able to forget a lot",
Subha Siriwardena said as she saw Daisy was engrossed in thinking.
"Haven't I got things to be thought about? But I won't think about
them. I feel such a horrible isolation. At times, I thought of shrieking
out. To yell out my sadness" , Daisy said Subha looking directly at her
eyes.
"Daisy, don't think about a lot of things. Try to get close to
someone. Try to love someone. Then most of the problems would be over ",
Subha said in her usual carefree manner.
"I don't want to love anyone. Since I haven't got anyone to love, why
should I love someone else. ", Soome asked in a most melancholy tone.
Subha Siriwardena, for a moment, dumbfounded before that melancholy
mood.
"Daisy listens to me. If you want love, you must love. If you are not
used to loving, you are also not being loved. Daisy, this entire life is
a transaction", said Subha, laughing while toying with a bunch of keys
in her hand. After Soome returned home Praneeth came.
"Son you must learn well", Soome said. Praneeth sat on the camp bed.
"Let me see, son, your report", Praneeth took the report that Soome's
elder son brought in. Soome tied up the dishevelled hair into a mess.
"Son, you have scored a lot of marks. You did very well. I will bring
you a prize when I come next", said Praneeth, patting on her elder son.
The elder son smiled with gratitude after a long time, thinking that
there was someone to look after him.
"Daisy, you should be intimate with the children. When you distance
in this manner, you would not be able to control later. You should be
very careful in dealing with children", Praneeth explained Daisy in
extremely kind tone.
"Praneeth, I fulfil my share of duty to the children. That man put
down his cross. I have still to bear my cross," said Daisy looking at
Praneeth as if to relieve her burden in mind.
"Who was that man?" she sarcastically smiled at Praneeth's question.
"That man was my husband", she said in a pitched tone.
Though Praneeth tried to play with the younger son, he ran to the
grandmother.
"You should bring up two children well", Praneeth said looking at the
children.
"They will grow. Take it aside Praneeth. I am worried about what this
Wijeweera is trying to do again. He tries to sacrifice another
generation of youth", said Soome sitting closer to Praneeth.
Praneeth spoke about a lot of things before Daisy. Praneeth also
thought since the JVP was proscribed and had gone underground, a lot of
unpleasant things would happen. Instead of anti-establishment sentiments
in 1971, JVP had now based its campaign on patriotism and motherland
concept.
"What Daisy told was correct. They will look back on after
sacrificing another generation of youth", said Praneeth and took the cup
of tea that Duleena brought in.
Footnote
Wijeweera - Referring to Rohana Wijeweera, the founder of the JVP (Janatha
Vimukthi Peramuna), People's liberation front.
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