Seven Stories about working in a bookstore:
We’d spent all night boxing up the store on a Tuesday, but I had
shifts on my schedule through the end of the week, so I walked to the
store, dressed for work and a bit early for the shift on Thursday with
it in mind I’d find it locked tight—it had already been explained that
final checks would be mailed out.
store lights were off, but through the window I saw one of the
part-timers propped up on the countertop reading a magazine.
“Are we open?”
“Yes we are” he said, at first not even looking up then doing so with
an annoyed, hapless expression.
I’d never met this person before, so held out my hand, introducing
myself, explained I was on shift at two. He loosened up, immediately,
shook my hand and sighed while chuckling.
“Sorry, I thought you were a customer.”
“You’ve had customers?”
His smile widened.
The store was still operational—when I talked to Peter he explained
that he had wanted to box things up early, just to have it done, because
there was no longer staff to work with and though he hadn’t expected I
would quit his idea was ‘better safe than sorry’. There was cash in the
till and customers did, indeed, come and go.
“How am I supposed to be able to find anything?” one asked me, dead
serious, obviously put out by the state of things.
“I really don’t know.”
I’d said this with sincerity, but it seemed to have affronted the
“Can you look things up on your computer?”
“Yes, I can. But I might suggest going to another store, because to
be honest there’s no way I can find anything that’s already been boxed.”
Nothing further had been packed up since the overnight, everything
just where it had been left—the other remaining part timer out-and-out
refused to have anything to do with it and I was totally on his side.
“I don’t understand what’s going on, why are you still telling people
you’re open for business?”
I didn’t know was this question some sort of Socratic investigation
or if he was just at his wits end or what, so I simply answered “We are
open for business, you know? We’re just in the process of closing down.”
“In the process so much you might as well already be closed,” he
huffed, saying that on top of it he didn’t understand why I was
literally saying I refused to help him. “You’d think you’d want to show
some better customer service—maybe this is why you’re going out of
I got out the first sound of an answer, but he waved me off, started
poking around at boxes before leaving in a tizzy,
literally—literally—saying to me “Thank you for nothing, thank you for
In the meantime, I’d gotten a job as night watchman at a bio-genetics
research company way out in the middle of nowhere. I’d secured this post
in particular because it was the Ole Bordenal film Nightwatch (the
American, Ewan McGregor, version) that had prompted me to look into
night security—when I had been hired, I asked if they had any posts at a
morgue or medical examiner’s office and when they said No I’d asked
“What’s the scariest site that you do have?”
I worked graveyard shifts during the week, but the weekends was the
four o’clock-to-midnight. Saturday would be no trouble, but I noticed
that my Sunday shift at Bravado—the day the store was to be emptied, the
last day it technically existed—was from store opening until five. I
didn’t drive and the security site was way out, so I had arranged for a
ride at three (time to get a bite to eat, get freshened up, make the
Peter didn’t even look up at me when I mentioned I’d have to leave
early on Sunday, he just noticeably seethed down at the paper he was
“Schedule has you on until five,” he finally said.
I watched the side of his face for some tell, a faux smile wide on my
own, but when he just kept staring at the sheet I let out a long breath
and said “Okay man, but I have another job, you know? I’ll have to leave
He picked up the papers, went into the office, slammed the door, then
didn’t say anything else to me until he’d gone in and out of the store
twice for cigarette breaks.
“I can’t give you permission to leave early, you know? If you want
to, that’s your business, but it means you’re not working the full shift
and I’m still your manager so I can’t just say ‘That’s fine’. I mean,
you didn’t even ask me, you just told me and I don’t think that’s really
professional—it’s not cool to just tell your boss that you’re going to
take off when you’re supposed to be on shift. But do what you want.”
It was this same shift—I’d at first been helping to box up, properly,
but now was just doing so lackadaisically, sitting on the floor leafing
through whatever books were still around—that I was treated to listening
to Peter have a full on screaming match with his lady friend from back
in his home state over the office telephone.
overheard some tense ones before, but there had always been some
semblance of trying to keep up appearances—as I mentioned elsewhere,
he’d turn on a cassette of Scott Adams or an audio book version of a
Clive Cussler novel (“This stuff is all real,” he said to me one time
about one of these) and would whisper-curse as best he could—what I’d
overheard being because I would have to ask a question and so approached
the office door with caution, waiting for some opportune moment to
This time it went on, full volume, for half hour. The odd thing is, I
remember remarking to myself that there were no pauses in Peter’s
screaming, so either they were both shrieking overtop of each other or
he was just laying it out, not being interrupted—or a third possibility
that made me uneasy: Peter was just sitting in there yelling into a dial
tone, or hadn’t even dialled, was just venting aloud, spinning in his
The last time I closed the store was Friday—I’d leave work at ten, be
met by my girlfriend, we’d hang out for an hour then she’d take me to my
graveyard shift at the security site.
I had my duffle bag with me and as I was closing up alone (Peter was
scheduled, but had not shown up by eight so I doubted he’d be putting in
an appearance) I poked through boxes and perused what was still left
unpacked, setting up little piles of items I’d take.
Recalling how Pamela had once mentioned boxes of special ordered
product that had never been sent away, I spent some time in the
backroom—this still had not even been touched, as far as boxing up went.
There were some pretty interesting things around—books, fixtures,
advertisements, I kind of wished I’d thought to loot the room, sooner.
Going through a pile of posters and from-the-publisher promotional
stands that had never been properly assembled all splayed out across two
long tables, I discovered someone’s secreted stash of pornography. It
was rather breathtaking, at least eighty to one hundred copies of porno
mags dating back god knows how long.
These became top priority—I made them into heavy piles, not
remembering it was my girlfriend picking me up until I already had them
shoved in the duffle. Sighing, I took them out, re-hid them less
elaborately on the off chance I’d get another crack at them and resumed
my general scavenging, a little bit less enthusiastically.
To my great surprise, Peter was working when I arrived Sunday
morning, had sweat clothes on, rushing from the office to the telephone
at the cashier counter, deeply involved with some computer technician
about the final shut down procedures. He took long enough to say “Only
use that drawer,” pointing at the center till. I just nodded, knew there
was no point in even asking why we were keeping the doors unlocked.
I walked a lap of the store, contemplating it all generally, kind of
chuckling that still, other than the little bit I’d halfheartedly done
to avoid Peter the previous day, nothing further had been packed
up—there was even a bag of gummy bears and a soda left on the floor next
to some packing tape from where I’d set myself up.
I heard Peter fiddling around up front, but was caught off guard to
see him decked out in his rollerblade gear, cigarette already lit and at
a dribble from his lip, just standing in the propped open entrance door,
backpack over one shoulder.
“Adios, man,” he said.
I didn’t even have time to ask him when he’d be back or if he
remembered how I was leaving at three before he was skating in heavy,
blundering stokes out across the strip mall parking lot.
I hadn’t locked the door, so a customer did wander in. Politely
enough, he asked were we closed and took my saying “More or less” with
the good humour it was meant. I told him it was alright to take a look
around and delightfully he came to the checkout counter with a copy of
Chicken Soup for the Dog Lovers Soul.
Tendering his transaction, the drawer popped to reveal an empty till.
“Sorry, I think my boss was a bit rushed this morning, forgot to set
me up. I really don’t know why we’re still open, you know?”
I used the button under the drawer to pop the first cashier station
and found that till empty, as well.
Considering the physical money tray was never removed from the
stations at Bravado, I had no reason to think anything other than that
Peter had been too caught up with computer support to have bothered with
normal procedure—and as the customer was nice about telling me to just
keep the entire fifteen dollars he was paying with, laughing about the
whole situation, I just laughed at it, as well.
The office door was unlocked when I tried it and before I even had
time to start poking around for Peter’s telephone number or some place
the safe combination might be written (I’d by this time locked the front
door until the money matter could be resolved) I saw the safe door open,
the thing empty except for the cloth coin sack, a few rubber bands, and
an envelope filled with paperclips—the lock box was on the floor by the
office chair, open, tipped on its side.
At one o’clock, I got a call from corporate—I had to tell them Peter
wasn’t there and that, in fact, he might have emptied the safe and run
“Are the liquidators there?”
I blinked. “No. I’m here. But I’m leaving in two hours.”
“No, no. You have to stay until these guys get there, it should be
any time, they said they were only twenty minutes out last time I talked
“Alright. I mean, I’ll let them in, but I have to leave at three, I
have another job.”
The corporate fellows tone was a combination of bewilderment and
anger, anger which he aimed at me—to be fair, no one else was there to
aim it at, but still it put me right off.
In an accusatory tone, the guy asked me what I meant by ‘Peter had
run off’ and so I curtly related about the tills being empty, the safe
being open and Peter skating away, hours before.
“I never would have noticed if a customer hadn’t come in.”
“Why are you letting customer in? Lock the door immediately—why are
you taking customers?”
The tone was the end of it for me, I put it to the guy flat that I
was leaving at three, that I was taking customers because that’s what my
boss (who I referred to as belittling as I could as “the man that you
hired to run this store”) had told me to, and that I wasn’t the one they
should be yelling at. Then I said something like ‘Figure it out’ and
hung up the phone, feeling exhilarated, dreadful, and nervous.
It was ten minutes before he called back, and his hardline had been
redoubled. “You are not authorized to leave the premises—you are an
employee of the store and you cannot leave the premises unattended.”
“I’m a part time clerk and the store is closed—you want me to stay
till the end of my shift, or what? What will you do, dock me the last
explained that if I locked the door, the liquidators couldn’t get in and
that I couldn’t leave the door open, because then I would be responsible
for the merchandise.
“I don’t agree with any of that. Here,” I was in a helpful mood all
of a sudden, “I’ll put the key in an envelope and tape it to the door.
Or better, I’ll leave it at the shoe store and you can tell the
liquidators to pick it up there.”
“Do not leave our key at the shoe store,” he barked, mad dog,
threatening me with theft of company property if I did so.
I left Bravado Bookmark with my duffle bag full of pornography
(Shalvo’s, I imagined, from the bulk of it—had it been Peter’s I
imagined he’d not have left it behind) taped the envelope with the key
to the front door and waited for my friend Nicolai to pick me up. I’d
filled two big bags with a selection of scavenged merchandise which I
tossed in the back seat of his truck when he pulled up to the curb.
“Peter robbed the store,” I said while he turned down the blues music
he’d had on high.
“He emptied the safe, put on his rollerblades and took off down the
road. He actually said ‘Adios’ to me. Adios.”
“What did he steal, like thirty dollars?”
“Something like that, I suppose” I said, breathing a sad laugh,
stretching where I sat, my feet pressing down on the duffle bag at my
feet, the contents of which I didn’t mention.
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