Love
I don’t know why I’m writing this. I guess I still don’t want you to
know that I had a crush on you. Not that I’m certain that I did have a
crush. I’m still confused about what I felt for you back then. I’m too
old for such sentimentalities. But when I saw you again, after so many
years, I think my heart skipped a beat. That means something, right?
It all happened a long time ago, but I still remember it as if it all
happened just yesterday. I was so sure that you were in our junior
batch, when I first saw you. You looked so young and innocent that I
felt like ruffling your hair.
I hardly knew you, but felt an instant liking towards you, like you
were the only one who could understand me. It’s strange because all my
friends felt the same way - that I’m myself only when I’m with you. If
that’s not a sign but an indication that we were meant to be. Then I
don’t know what it is.
But something told me `be on guard’. Maybe you had a girlfriend, a
crush on someone else. And then there was that other possibility. In the
campus language, I didn’t want to do `Lambert’. Just as I feared, it
turned out that you were, at least, a year younger than me. Darn. I have
a crush on a guy who is younger than me.
To make matters worse one of my friends told me that I had a crush on
a fresher. I wanted to hate her, but surprisingly I couldn’t. But I
envied her. Silly as it may seem I was heartbroken. I was under the
impression that you liked me, at least a little bit.
When you told me that the girl had a boyfriend I thought I’d be
pleased, but I weren’t. When I saw just a few weeks ago you were still
single. But I wasn’t. I think I got over those sentimental feelings long
time ago. But then again my friends - who by the way have never met you
before - said that we were a perfect match. What do you make of that?
Anyway, it’s too late now, as I have got over it...
I’m still trying to determine what I felt for you then. Maybe this
would explain it all......
- Samadhi
You, the wind beneath my way
I was alone in the world
When you left me
I do not wish for anything
But happiness
You opened my eyes
against the cruel world
Then you left me
I knew this would end
In this manner
Neither you nor I will gain anything
As I, have to be left alone
I know she would be happy
But, remember you’ve broken a heart
Do you remember,
How you talked with me
How you smiled with me
How you imagined our lives would be
Do you feel the same with her?
Memories of you and me
And the way it used to be
Then you left me to wonder how did this go wrong
Like a honey bee, you took the best out of me
Now, I can’t waste these memories
Like a fairy tale as you are so unreal
A woman like me can never win a heart of yours
But for a moment you were the wind beneath my way
- Natasha Fernando
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