 It was just a little crush. But it was no schoolgirl crush, since it
was just over a year ago, and I'm already 27, he was much older. If it
means anything at all, I apologize; I never meant things to turn out
this way. I still don't know if Sagara - which is not his real name, but
he would have no doubt that this letter was meant for him - is in love
with me, or if it were just a little crush on his par as well. But in
case you are just for the record I'd like to say I'm sorry.
 You knew I was practically engaged when you met me. I never attempted
to hide that. But I admit that I may have warranted it in some way, I
may have encouraged your behaviour. What can I say the Trinco sun and
your starched white uniform probably got to me. I had fun as never
before, as we all had, but nothing beyond the usual friendly innocence.
I kept on blushing and squirming when our friends teased me about you. I
should have ignored it completely; I thought I was better than that.
In a world of gruelling routines and eternal fighting against
terrorism, perhaps our brief interruption relieved the tension a bit.
But we did not have an affair, as my fiance first suspected. But that is
no excuse, if I encouraged you to harbour romantic feelings for me I
sincerely apologize.
But all that has been put to right. My fiance believes me now. The
bridge of trust has been rebuilt. I don't mean to be poetic, but I love
my fiance more than life itself, neither you nor anyone else could take
his place. And I thank god for each day I spend with him. We will be
getting married soon.
Please don't call me, text me or try to contact me. We were never
meant to be together. One day you will find a love of your own. Regds,
YKW
Have got nothing to lose
 I still remember the way we broke up
It was day but felt so cold
Her call took me to her apartment
It was silent - as I was
She looked in to my eyes
And said something
It wasn't a thing I wanted to hear
Or was it?
I laughed without any feelings
I wanted to act like my heart got broken
But I couldn't
I knew there was nothing to lose.
Geeptha Palliyaguru
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