Short Story
The whited sepulchre
by Niranjali Motha
"Why is that none of you wants to be farmers?" I ask the boys
fancying a friendly smile. They all respond at once, nothing is clear to
me. They talk too fast, a dialect that is regional. I try to grasp a few
words... and I fail. "Sh..Sh..Sh.." shouts a tall dark lad, taking the
leadership in calming the group. "One person at a time please..." The
group obeys. Their responses vary.
I give them a patient hearing, making a mental note of the
professions they were uttering. Three bankers, five teachers, one
cricketer and two lawyers.
Seated facing me in a semi-circle was a group of adolescents from the
border villages of Anuradapura. The girls in the front row, their white
school uniforms filmed with a rusty shade of dust with two hued stripped
ties around their collar. Some boys were in casual T-shirts and denim
trousers the rest in school uniforms a white shirt with the same shade
of dust and white trousers.
I was conducting an orientation on 'gender and life-skills' to a
selected group of students in the area. The gathering is informal and
the discussions continued on a casual manner. It is a time of fun and
frolic for the young group with carefree humour. Some 'discussion
points' though were of a serious nature the comments from the team were
hilarious.
One boy wishes to be a clergy when he grows up.. to the others it is
a joke. "That would be the end of your religion..." quips one and the
others burst out in laughter. A few of them an extra decibel higher...
shaking their heads, throwing their hands up... different gestures and
varied acknowledgements. I foresee signs of budding leadership among
them, wielding authority, many an aspiration written all over their
faces... in their light coloured bright eyes...
Bus travel
We adjourn the meeting at 3.50 p.m. so that the distant travellers
could board the 4 o'clock bus, or else they will have to wait till 6
p.m. The two buses allocated to their villages cross each other in two
hour intervals. At times when one bus breaks down (which happens
frequently) they have to wait for four hours till the single bus
returns.
Some youth were destined to trek long distances through the thicket,
daring the wild elephants and reptiles. The roads to some of these
villages are not motorable hence no vehicles ply their area. Being
mindful of the hardships of these hapless groups who have few buffers to
impending dangers, I release them early to reach their homes before the
darkness falls.
I watch a trail of bicycles entering the school compound. The riders
were carrying empty water cans with them. I have a mixed feeling on
letting the people in.
Fetching water from the school compound is prohibited to the
communities unless during the drought season. This was not the dry
season though most of the villagers did not have close access for
potable water.
Our gathering creates a profitable journey for the villagers. On the
pretext of accompanying their children, the parents were making a hayday
to fetch water from the school well. This is a luxury they are deprived
otherwise on a normal school day. In these communities well water in
their home compounds lasts only for a few months during the rainy
season.
The rest of the year people wade through rubble roads and thickets to
reach state built agricultural wells for water. The wells in the school
premises and the temples meet the need of the people during the dry
season as and when possible. At times, the village prelate organises
bowsers from the city to distribute water to the people.
I watch as the people make a beeline towards the well and wait
patiently for their turn to fill up their empty vessels. The unity among
them during the hour of need captures my heart.
Once the elders have attended to their tasks the children approach me
to bid farewell. Some fondly clinging on to the hands of the parents
while some others were maintaining a distance with other members of the
family, depicting the varied generation gaps friendly, respectful and
fearful.
One by one the children fall at my feet worshipping me in the
traditional manner. I am too embarrassed, yet I am compelled to
acknowledge them or it will be an insult or an offence to their humble
gesture. I touch each of their heads and bless them, my palms getting
soiled by the herbal oils from their hair.
I lean on to a classroom door post and wait for my transport. A few
children from the group decide to stay back to play in the school
compound. "We live close by", they say. (As for my understanding 'close
by' would be a longer distance than we presume. During my early years of
social service, I have trekked the villages for data gathering and
research processes. The walk with the village community always left me
with sore feet and an exhausted body. "Just a short distance' or a 'hoot
away' would easily be at least a few kilometres in length.)
The girls were playing hopscotch and the boys 'running games'. They
were running in circles overtaking one another while knocking at each
other. The contempt in adversity cannot be measured by any object. Had
these children any toys or sports equipment they would not resort to be
running around one another to seek childhood recreational satisfaction.
I could never imagine the children of my neighbourhood enjoying a game
of this nature in an open space. It would have been 'boring' or 'not
cool' in their vocabulary. Yet these children were deriving immense joy
in just chasing each other.
All of a sudden something goes wrong with the boys group and a fight
erupts. I see two of the boys wrestling in the hard ground. Their limbs
firm on the grip of each other. Their long skinny feet, struggling to
stay on ground trying to pin each other on the surface.
A vapour of rusty dust rises and mingles into the air. I take no
effort to separate the fighters. It is their right... their freedom and
their territory and also their play... I keep a silent watch... a trait
that's not in me.
There is something nice about the dust in the arena. It has a kind of
an aroma. I take a deep breath absorbing all the scent I could, like a
never to be missed opportunity.
"Miss" I hear a soft voice of a girl. I turn to face the person. Two
girls stand next to me. "She wants to talk to you" says one girl
pointing the other to me.
"Yes?"...
"Miss I can't study in the evenings. I get a severe headache,
whenever I sit to read..." laments the girl. I give her a few tips... as
per my knowledge. (I am glad that no medical professional was in my
company or they may have risked the loss of their profession or me a few
teeth!)
"Miss, how I can enter the Law College, queries the other girl who
aspires to be a lawyer. I tell her to study hard and obtain higher marks
in her A/L examination.
Suicide bomber
"If I don't become a lawyer, I will become a suicide bomber", says
the girl to my utter dismay. Her voice was so firm and adamant. It took
a considerable time for me to grasp the gravity of her statement and to
steady myself up. "Why" it was a bark from my lips. "I want to kill all
the Tamils" she spits...her voice now in slight tremble..." They killed
my father and brother... they were killed in the bus bomb..." She
utters...each of her words connecting my heart to her moisture filled
eyes. I let her purge her anger till she is breathless. Her companion
has chosen to abandon us by then.
My memory is still afresh of the bus bomb in 'Yakawewa' and so are
the pains and the emotions I had suffered. I very vividly remember the
many front page pictures of a wailing father holding the fractured body
of his child flashed across the dailies of Sri Lanka. With trembling
hearts we watched on television, the news of the mass funeral, an
angering sight of a procession of rows of coffins being carried to the
burial grounds... a weeping community following the caskets. A score of
a single village targeted and killed by a ruthless bomb. They were laid
to rest amidst morose curses of a battered nation.
Nayana the girl relates her story in no easy terms. The ordeal of her
community.. her father and her only brother... she explains in details
the aftermatch of the incident, explaining to me her mother's struggle
for survival an ordeal which no human on earth should suffer.
I wait for her to calm herself and get into a therapeutic
conversation, my tone overly gentle. I choose the simplest possible
language while being mindful of the words.
A wrong word or a gesture of mine could ruin the life of this
precious child. She calmly answers all my questions and shares her
grief, the emotions. It was a lengthy discussion, the dialogue so
painful...
I am rudely brought to my senses by a screeching halt of a vehicle.
My transport has arrived. Nayana helps me carry my bulky books, while I
reach for my laptop. I open the rear door of the cab to help Nayana to
place the stationery on the vacant seat.
While I try to close the door Nayana's head knocks on my shoulder.
She apologises profusely. I smile in acceptance. In a bewildered look
Nayana turns towards me. "Are you a Tamil?" I smile gently. "How do you
know?" "The Pottu" says the girl pointing at my forehead. I had
completely forgotten about my kumkum (which I wore for fashion not so
much for my identity).
I sense the change of expression in Nayana's face. Her eyes widening,
her body language was not the friendliest, the innocence of the girl I
had witnessed during the conversation was changing.
If heart is where all emotional pain is stored, I am glad it's hidden
by my ribs and flesh, or else Nayana would have seen the crushed heart's
bleeding.
Expression
I jump to the front seat and settle myself comfortably, tucking my
long frilly skirt and shawl under my thighs. Nayana taps on the shutter.
I open the door. "Madam you shouldn't have been born a Tamil...in vain
you are a nice person..." (Aparade Miss demala vune, miss oya
hondakenek)... Nayana shouts. I fail to fully grasp the expression in
her face.
There was anger, disappointment, frustrations and many more emotions
that the world is yet to understand and term in the encyclopaedia. I nod
in affirmation, quite conscious of my response. I am not ashamed to do
so. A group of people who spoke my mother tongue have hurt this innocent
soul. They have destroyed her world. They have injured this child....
Nayana tries to continue her conversation, her voice slightly acidic.
I close the door abruptly and slide back to settle on the headrest.
It's nice and cozy inside the air-conditioned vehicle, the smell of
dust no more.
"Tired madam?" I hear the voice of Kalum our chauffeur. I tightly
close my eyes pretending not to hear. The roaring sound of the vehicle
engine mixed with the sound of rubble crushing under the tyres indicates
to me the hard journey through this path.
I peep through the windscreen. All I see is a long stretch of the
dilapidated road ahead of me. |